if i sleep tonight and never wake up

i hate myself :'( n now my feeling control me. i hate thhiss stupid feelingg! everything goes wrong just because this stupid feeling.huhu. oh God,give me strenght to fight this feeling :'( how if i sleep tonight n never wake up? is it can mke me feel betterr? huhu . seriouslyy dearrr,this feeling came without any reason :'( sorry i hurt your feelingg . but i really dnt know what is going on in my mmind right now :( maybe i'm too tired rightt?  i just need to take my restt now n tomorrow evverything will be fine . okayy dear?? ahuhu . its okay if you r not trusting me :') i understand dearr . i'm sorry i can't be such a good girlfriend to you . huhu :'( dearrrr,iloveyouu so muchh n i dont want u to leave me :'( i'm sorry for everythingg dearr. i'm sorry i love youu so much . i'm sorry i can't let you go n find a good one :'( i'm sorry forr everythingg . dearr,maybe it good if i sleep tonight n never wke up rightt? so u can find someone better than me :'( but rememberr dearr,i'll always love u n be with youu .